I have been experiencing this tiredness, the feeling that creeps on me even if I haven’t done anything all day long.
I experience this dullness when I am finally left all lonesome after a long day of pretending to be okay
The crying spell that overshadows me when I wake up every 2 am with my thoughts all muddled up. The desire to sleep all the time - with no sleep in my eyes, to stubbornly stay in the bed, and be lost in dreams that never makes sense to me.
It is the urge of being wanting to be somewhere else, that isn’t really here or around.
I constantly gaze at the curtains or moon through the window, where I find a temporary peace with no thoughts, no chaos, no feelings, just a deep hollowed numbness at the center of my being.